TRYING.

 i find myself

expending a great deal of energy

to not think of you

so much so 

that my whole day becomes about you

if i'm not careful

things i would tell you if we were speaking...

stuff to make you laugh

god i miss your laugh

by the end of the day

i am sore and exhausted 

from the effort

so i relax into sleep

and of course, there

you are

do white boys 

practice voodoo?

during the day

there is a stop sign

where your face should be

but at night 

I remember all of it