shut up.

 you think you are the expert here

you think you know anything

about silence

but here in this quiet world, I am king

i can shut my mouth forever

everything i need to say 

i can hold in my mind

force back down to my belly

does your silence hurt? 

yes, like ten thousand frozen needles

under my skin

but i know it's purposeful

i know you want me to react 

from the pain

but my specialty 

is disappointment

and there is molten cast iron

at my core

since i came into the world

screaming with rage

at a smallness 

i did not choose,

i have been disappointing

every time i find myself made small

i will disappoint